i want come back to AUGUST pls!!

happiest month in my love

fallin in love...havin best bdae ever...

given best bdae gift ever from some1 i appreciate the most in dis world...

wat others things are happier than spending bday wif some1 u love wif...

no pressure, no boredness, no lackness of money.

life seems so easy for me

coz i have u to stand here wif me

i want come back to SEPTEMBER pls!!

second month when im aware im more n more fallin wif him...

havin 1st broad trip together...

talked from heart to heart

wat others things than spend wif some1 u love for more than 40 hours bus journey

i hate my OCTOBER!!

things started changed regularly earlier october

everythng is fine but then...

i hate to be alone without him

cried till tears are dried...

thinking until mind are blank

I hate my NOVEMBER!!

i hate to do somethng without him

im tried to put my heart on some1 dat love me

but then still I'm failed

my heart still fill with u

ntg changed, indeed its goin deeper and deeper

im feeling more n more lonely

even my friends are surroundings me

but somethng was different without u

wat I'm done was unfair to dat guy

im started compared between him and you...

wats the hell im living in?

why im become so bad?

How about DECEMBER?

will i hate it or i love it?

no one will know it...

its GOD scret

wat i can do is wish between im amnesia for our story

or wish that theres miracle for both of us

that we can just like bfore...

can I hoping the second choice to happen?

dat one day, u will stop to gv us the"space"

dat we can just like our august and september

oh hell, i really need some1 to drag me from dis

not SOMEBODY, but SOMEONE.

i realize i couldnt find some1 more perfect than u

bcoz u r perfect in ur own way

u r really too special for me

even im realize im not suit for u

im not perfect in ur way

but im promised if u give us second chance...

i will try my best to be some1 that perfect in ur way

more than evelyn...

more than ur ex...

u wan me to be cool? i will

u wan me to be smart girl? I'm trying

u wan me to be mature? I'll do my best

wat else u wan me to be so i will be perfect in ur way?

i will trying all of them

i can fight all dis battle just to be perfect in ur way

Be honest,

I'm never expected kind of love like dis..

its really unexpected...and kinda surprise to me

or maybe its karma for me?

reminding me not to play around again wif some1's heart..

i swears its rill hurt me

i dun even care wat people see me n talked about me

wat i care the MOST is u

how u see me and how do u feel about me?

and now back to the Question,

How gonna be my DECEMBER be?

will the miracle happen between us?

He is not just SOMEBODY in my life...
But he is SOMEONE in my life...
i love him more than im expected...
love is kind of silly and fun
playing around us...
playing with our heart...
i read a story once...
its says
"Only time that capable to understand how valuable love is"
im voted for it
coz I'm having it once...
i felt wat is love all about
sometimes, some1 we love didnt love us bak
some1 we dun have feeling wif, love us deeper than we imagine
why we couldnt choose wif who we wan to be together..
I'm asking why, a big WHY
A man of God said this, theres 4 reasons why God delayed our dreams :
* There's other things God wan to do 1st
* God is giving you time to get ready for the responsibility
* God is waiting for u to show more passion to little things He has given to u
* God waiting for u to deal with the sin in ur life

i like 4 of these reasons...
but be honest...
maybe no2 that I'm felt suits the most...
maybe its rite.. God wants me to be ready wif my self
I'm not grown, how could I take a responsibility to my dreams,
to my relationship
i guess i must starting to grown up now
get all of our memories flying away from me
lets it buried deep inside my heart
dat only u and me who know it
thanx S for getting me such great experiences
thanx for the memories
and thanx for all things dat u done for me

singapore....
wohoooo....
finally visited singapore...
its just next to malaysia...
how could i never visited it bfore?

spended 6 hours bus journey from KL
thx to my bus dat delayed from 12 midnite to 1 am in the morning
so i can catchup singapore by 6.30 in the morning...
arrived in lavender area...
promised met up my girl at bugis BHG...
its ady 7 when im reached bugis...
but my stupid blackberry are totally off in SG...
luckily jie has texted me to infrm dat its jam all over the way
so she might be a bit late...
at least i know dat she is metting me soon =)

have a cup of green tea latte as my energy drink fr sleepless nite...
we r gossiped a lot and nostalgia along while waited for adriady...
he was late for 1 hours ++
when he came,
we decided cao to sentosa but bfore dat we having out lunch at vivo
adri was craved for sushi tei...
but when we reached der...sushi tei havent open yet...
so we waited...waited till 1 hours
then went to Bosses
its chinnese food reastaurant dat serving yumcha menu
kinda similar like dragon-I in KL
but the unique things is
dis rest using mafia concept
so all the waiters all wearing mafia constume
and all the interior of the rest was black
after havin our lunch, we headed to sentosa

me n adri


bad adri forced me to played sky ride + luge
luge ride =)
sky ride =(

oh NO..big2 NO
okay theres no prob wit the luge... i was totally fun...
but SKY RIDE? wtf man,...im phobia with somethng high...
but he really smart to trapped me in to dis game... -_-'
i hate him so much dat time...
i swore i will killed him after the game

after played sky ride with pale face...
he wont stopped...
he forced me to watch 4D movie dat cost around 30$ bucks
it will be around 75rm or 225000idr...
wtf...just spend dat sum of money for 5 mins show...
OMG....
i was refused to joined as im in lackness of singapore $
but adri forced n insist i must joined him
he said he will treated me for dat...*wink*
thx u gie....:D


rite away from sentosa we headed bak to vivo city for teatime
havin adri's craving things ,sushi tei...
luckily its open dis time
so we get a seat, n starter picking up plates by plates
Yummy...i swear
but have a super bad sleepy mood
even i letting my self to slept at sushi tei table while we r eating..
so paiseh but no choice...rill sleepy...TT
when we were catch up with the bill... adri insist to paid it 1st...
but he wont let us paid him bak...
he said im lack of dollar...
so he wont let me paid him the sushi tei bill...
even i still can afford the bill...

heart the sofshell crab maki...but its damn expnsive over der
7$ for a small tiny plate?!
im crazy
$@$^$&($
he was said he wont take pic...but then he posed...-_-'

from sushi tei we make move to orchard
for chill wif some old frens
shopping n hang around in the new shopping mall der...
till drop then we decided to sat n enjoying our meal at gustimmo
it was a nice place
romantic...=P
while waiting for ayong n tata,
we took pics...gossiping till 8 ayong n tata came wif their fren, hendra...
we talked2...gossiping...till like crazy ppl...

so sad desy not joined us in dis pic...=(

it was sad dat i must catch my bus to KL at 10
was hoped i lost my bus ticket...=(
so i no need to came bak facing my papers in the next day
it was very nice night...
as i met my precious silvya as well
even its just 15 mins chatted...
but i was happy to met her...
as we r separate for 1,5 years =(
really miss u alot dear...
headed to lavender at 9.45...
luckily its not jam around so we can moved fast...
so sad to leave pau n adri in bus station...
adri stucked me for looked drinks for me
he asked ppl over der to catch nearest 7eleven
but as i know the nearest 7e is 1km away...
so i refused him to go n bought me drinks
but he was insist to bought me some drinks
as he scared i will thirst in bus
rill so sweet of him...
never tot dat he was changed a lot frm last time i met him
he was a childish little boy dat spended most of his time wif game
but now..
he growing up be a more mature man...
i was really amazed...
ppl can changed thru time...
even they all said i was changed as well
they saw the more mature me now...
talkless...serious...more indipendent but decisive
wow...i never expected they said like dat...
its really makes me super happy =)

bak to KL at 3 am..
was deceiver by fuckin taxi driver...
he told me it was meter he used but after all arrived at hum,
the argo was 60... with 50% midnite charge wtf...
its only 30 bucks when we were back from thailand last time
summore im super angry..i lost my blue blanket at bus...
huhu....
but overall...its really a NICE trip...
i leaned things important...
im not alone in dis moment...
i have so many frens care about me...
even i dun have my baby boys besides me...
i really wont be regreted to took dis trip...
hope can go singapore often n see u guys...
love yaaa :D

95th posted from last year....
have been a bit recover from heart's hurt...
thx all to my cheers housemate to cheers me up n make me LMAO everyday....
they know about wat im gone thru dis season....
havin exams in a while time...
can u imagined dat i just in the beginning of sem
but then now final is in the corner ady...
my sem 3 goin off soon...wtf...time rill passed so fast....
and i still missing my baby boy a lot

suddenly decided to have a day of singapore trip
after fnished up with last paper friday afternoon
suddnly felt like wanna travel somewhere by bus...
wanna clear my mind
wanna cried till gao2 n dats its...
so decided to singapore...
piggie aka adriady oso invite me to singapore to met
n joined him jalan2
we have been 2 years didnt met each others...
he staying in batam now
so its kind of good ideas to said a yes to his invitation =)

took my bus ticket at afternoon...
prepare n settled everythings in fews hours time
and wnt by midnite 12 bus

they said im crazy a girl...
im smilled and said yes i am
even next 3 papers just in 2 days time
still decided to travel... =P

spended a quality time i bus...
im cried for sure
my ipod keep played bu de bu ai (have to love)
its our fave songs
we used to be our songs when we hv a free time
but now?
its questionnable...
i didnt slept for whole nite...
my mind likes my ipod,
keep played our memories
and i wan to screamed dat time
i really miss sendy a lot
i miss my baby boy
couldnt stand without him
im strong bcoz i have him bside me
okay i know its bcome emo post again
i hope dis will be the last one
coz i cant stand like dis anymore
i must and must keep move on bcoz...
life goes on with or without him